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Monday, September 19, 2005

): slept the whole afternoon. and i dreamt about alot of happy things only to find it all a dream when i woke up.

everyday my family ask me.. how do i answer them? i think i'm just so stupid to wait patiently knowing nothing good would come out of it. why did you have to leave just as everything was going so smoothly for me? sigh. every night i cry myself to sleep.. you've changed. you've been very cold now. im too used to messaging you everytime i do something because thats what i used to do before. calling you up everytime i have the chance to but i guess its kinda awkward to do that now knowing you wont reply my sms-es anymore. i lost you even before having you.. i know i can never have you. but why must life be so unfair? when one moment in my life, i thought i found the right guy, but God had to take him away from me. i read ALL our past conversations in MSN and how i miss telling you i miss you. miss giving you kisses and hugs. listened to all the songs you sent me, recalling you singing them while studying on my bed. when i walked my dog this afternoon, i miss having someone there with me to walk sydney. i felt so alone without you here. i wonder what you're doing now.. having dinner with your friend..? sigh.

ARE ALL GUYS LIKE THIS? sigh. so far i know 2 girls of the same case as me. one of them is my very good friend too.

bettina | 8:53 PM

stylegoddess;
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I'm 19. I'm a chinese Singaporean. I'm attached and lovin' it. I'm studying in Ngee Ann Poly. I love singing. I'm a movie bum. I'm a cam-whore. I'm easily contented. I'm in love with Chuan Kai and forever will be. I'm Bettina.

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