Thursday, October 20, 2005
finallyyy. im blogging. (: hah. sorry guys for not updating regularly. bettina | 9:02 PM
anyway, im finally 18! :D happyhappyyy. i really enjoyed myself sooo much. (: thanks people for the presents.
chengyin, crystal, ivy and candice. - pink birkenstock and 2 bettina undies. LOL.
andrea - VNC shoe i wanted so much.
kimberly - a nice pouch and scented candles.
glenn - Godiva chocolates.
celine - levi's jeans, a ring, roses, chocolates and a yummy-licious dinner.
canon colleagues - a top
thanks for the presents and for those who also wished me, THANK YOU AND I LOVE YOU. (: you guys really make my day. :D
well, lots to update. but im just soo lazy to think back. oh well. although im not suppose to be thinking about a particular somebody, i cried walking on the way home as i was listening to songs he sent me. and im pretty upset that he deleted me in msn as well as on friendster. whats worse is that he had to wish me happy birthday through alicia.. ): sigh. i cant blame him and i dont expect anything. but why go to such an extent of doing that? argh. not like im gonna steal you from her or anything. its over means its over. but.. fuckit.
well, so heres my long awaited entry. been working for the past few days. so there isnt much to blog about. bettina | 12:03 AM
saturday
worked. then met ivy and chengyin at teochew building for a dinner cos ivy's mom booked a table. so ivy asked both of us to go too. and lots of seafood which i cant eat. hah. then went to town, chengyin saw her timothy outside indo. then cindy picked us from scotts and off to momo we went. danced from 12am all the way to 3am. it was fun. packed with lots of cute guys, WEIRD guys and some crazy freako indian guys. hah. there are seriously alot of weird people. 2 examples. one guy who danced infront of me and cindy and he kept blowing at us! wth? 2nd guy is this fat guy who keeps standing in our way. haha. we call him the "fat guy" although he isnt that fat. he kept putting his hands on his inner thigh? imagine. and off to cindy's house after momo to get my stuffs and her brother fetched me home! so nice eh. (:
sunday to wednesday
WORK. (:
work again tomorrow. sleeping early cos im working at 9am tomorrow. :/ and friday, will be having dinner with celine and going black at night with the girlfriends. ((:
anyway, something for you guys to laugh your head off. its some conversations with the WEIRD customers i face at work.
just got back! my feet is DYING. actually all of ours are. me, chengyin, ivy and cindy. ohman. danced the whole night away at momo! damn tired now. i shall blog tomorrow alright. i still have to go work in like.... a few hours time? hah. gosh. anyway had fun with my lovelies. although the pain was killing us. OHWELL. nights.
bettina | 4:09 AM
i enjoyed myself alot today! (: firstly, cabbed down to town and met chengyin and ivy. but since they were late, and i was wearing shades, AND u know how embarrassing that is? therefore, i faster went into Fox and in the end, i bought 2 tops from there. :/ oh well. hard to resist anyway. bettina | 12:55 AM
so they came, we were so hungry, we went to wheelock's fish&co. HAHA alicia is gonna kill me. girl, we can go fish&co if you want k. i'll eat the most healthy dish there. (: ohh anyway, we were so full after eating. then went mng, bought a top there. went far east, bought a tube top there for tomorrow's dinner. then bought this really nice bag! (: ivy reserved it and is buying it tomorrow.
alex came to town to pick me and before heading to pasir ris, we went to pick andrea and pam. and off for bbq at the chalet! (: anyway all my canon colleagues are so sweet! they bought me a top for my birthday and its really nice. (: all of them didnt let me go near the bbq pit cos of the smoke. haha. so sweet right? yea. then we played some games and stuff. then alex fetched me home and he went back to pasir ris again. crazy huh. so far..
am super tired now! got to work again tomorrow. ): then at night going for dinner cos ivy's mom booked a table. yay. so fun. and after dinner, its MOMO! (: clubclubclub. but no drinks for me. ): how sad. oh well..
anyway, party at DXO, 18 October. RnB all night with DJ Rattle. Presale tickets at $15. please contact me for number of tickets. i'll be going so pls try to come too! (: thank you!
going out with chengyin and ivy tomorrow! suppose to go with alicia girl. im sorry dear. soon we'll go out okay? SO SORRY.. bettina | 11:44 PM
anyway at night, will be going for a chalet organized by my canon colleagues. so alex my supervisor will pick me up from town. ((: yayness. dont have to waste money on cab.
i'm soo tired. ): and daddy say i might be having fever. im so lazy to find the thermometer. X) my body feels so aching everywhere. damn..
okay, so results came out this morning at 9am and i checked it at 9plus. excited? NO. i woke up cos i had a BAD stomachache. gosh. i nearly cried i tell you. i woke up at 7plus just to go to the toilet and i was biting a towel! it was super painful. i probably have food poisoning. i couldnt sleep at all! sigh. up till now its still painful.. ): someone come and bring me to the doctor? i'll love you even more than the person who will buy me calbee hot&spicy potato chips.. bettina | 3:13 PM
anyway my results. I FUCKING FAILED MATHS. oh well. expected.
CATS - C+
S&W - Passed
COS - B
CM - F
FP - A
FSP - D+
WP - A
yea. shitty results. dont study somemore la. anyway at that period of time my thoughts were so distracted on someone. where got mood to study? ): oh well. SUMMER SCHOOL HERE I COME. haha. shit. i dont want to go!
anyway received some weird call just now. this person looked for me, asked me to help her tuition!? what the hell. she say she isnt feeling well today and ask me take over her. was stunned for a while cos she woke me up from my sleep. haha. DUMB.
and i'm off till sunday. they told me to rest more. that means, less $$$$$. ): sigh. by the way, HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY ANDREA! so sad couldnt join you guys last night. hope you enjoyed yourself! love ya!
-licia- `a.t.t.i.t.u.d.e says: bettina | 12:59 AM
man, i wan to eat strawbs
BETTINA ** all i need in this life of sin is me and my girlfriends. says:
i wanna eat hot and spicy calbee potato chips!
damn. i'm so craving for calbee hot & spicy potato chips! anyone!? send them to my house! and i'll love you like crazy. i'm serious! tomorrow also can! cos i took extra off day as my eyes are still swollen! ohh man. please call me if you wanna be loved! ((:
and, i forgot to mention! my dad ordered 2 IPOD NANOS and one of them is FOR ME! the black ONE! they're coming next weeek! OH BABY! you're mine! ((: i knew we were meant to be the first time i held you in my arms on the 10th of september 2005, 6:04pm....
poor alicia girl. she' at my place and she can't come online! haha! shes trying to use my dad's laptop now. ((: anyway, we had macs for dinner. yes, AGAIN. ohhman. SOOO damnn fattening. i had my double cheeeeeseburger meal again! hah. and she had mcspicy double. (: yumyum. bettina | 6:39 PM
packed the house just now and its soo much neater. and i found like 3 freaking pairs of heels i bought and totally forgot about it! haha. man. waste of $$$. i dont even wear them! X))
ANYWAY, i took out my stitches today but my eyes is still swollen like dont knw what la. the skin is so fat that the lid cant fully open yet! ohwell. i cant wait for it to fully recover. i think its going to take quite some time for it to fully heal.
just now while i was busy cooking sydney's food, celine called me and asked me if she can ask me out for dinner for my birthday so i said okay. so its going to be on the 14th of october. oh well. shan't disappoint her. not like im so busy or what.
(: alright. shall stop here. blog again, later!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY BEN BEN! bettina | 11:31 PM
(my cousin)
my darlings came over today! IVY CHENGYIN and CRYSTAL! (: they came to visit me! its been so long since i saw them! thanks girls for dropping by.
we ordered macdonalds for lunch and ATE DAMN ALOT. gosh. confirm put on a few pounds. ): oh well. we had fun. (: chengyin napped in my house and she was so deep into her sleeep we didnt dare to wake her. crystal left at around 5plus? so while chengyin was sleeping, me and ivy walked crystal out to the gate. and went back, slacked again and woke chengyin up for dinner.
LOOK AT THE FRIES! hahaa. gosh. total of 3 portions. SINFUL..
tookk so many photos but i look GROSS in there. sooooo no photos of me. haha. damn. had so much fun with them. (: well, what to do. they are my darlings! love them to bits!
gonna remove stitches tomorrow!!!!! yay! they'll be going to sentosa. so sad i cant join them. have fun yea girls? alicia girl will be visiting me! yay. i love visits. (:
just got back home. enjoyed myself so much out with my girl just now. well, cabbed down to her house and waited for her to get ready. then cabbed down to jurong point and did our manicure for $23! bettina | 9:23 PM
then went for dinner at crystal jade la mian xiao long bao! (: yummyyyy. very little pictures of me cos YOU CANT FREAKING SEE MY EYES IN ANY OF THE PHOTOS. hah. but i tried so damn hard to open them. 
my girl eating her la mian. (:
then we shopped around. bought a jacket, a pair of pumps, 2 tops and.. thats all. (: then we went to swensens for dessert! growing damnnn fat already la. hah. 
look at my PUNY EYES? you cant even see them!
now you see it......
now you dont. ha.
i feel fat. and BROKE. i spent a total of $220 today. goshhhh. my hard earned moneyy. oh well. as long as i'm happy like what alicia say. (: im so glad i met her today. it was so last minute. BUT she made my day. (:
just got back from the hospital. got my bandages changed and i'll be back there on wednesday to remove my stitches! (: do you know how excited i am!? hah. but i wont be able to wear makeup for how freaking long la. what difference does it make. bettina | 1:17 PM
anyway, from today onwards, im going to try to be a happier girl. cos i realise i dont need you in my life. im not going to care about you anymore, not going to even bother looking at your photos, videos in my phone or care if you come online. why should i make myself so upset for? especially over you. someone who doesn't give a shit.
will be meeting alicia at jurong point to do manicure. i know i shouldnt be going out but its just too boring at home. will be taking cab the whole day. no buses cos the dust will affect my eyes. mom's kinda upset i insisted on going. sigh. dont wanna stay home and do nothing also. so shall go out and pamper myself. (:
sigh. how am i going to recover like this if i carry on crying everytime i see something saddening and hurtful? maybe i shall stop coming online for the next few days. its hard not to think when i have to stay home for 5 days straight. your presence in my room still lingers and it fucking hurts. there's many things i wanna say and do. but i cant. i havent even gotten over the "lets stop meeting" and now... hai. how am i suppose to face this? even i myself can tell i used to be so happy back then. everyone knew. my whole family. they were happy for me cos they could see me happy everyday.. you gave me so much hopes.. only to cause them crashing down even before anything could happen. bettina | 12:06 AM
im starting to hate you. hate you for doing this to me. why did you have to play with my feelings? ALL MEN ARE THE SAME.
but i dont care. i'm gonna get over you no matter what! i just have to. im gonna think about all the negative things about you and everything thats gonna make me forget about you. sigh. why did it have to lead to such an ending..
msn is so screwed up i tell you. i keep getting dc-ed. and this time it isnt my internet connection! dumb. i thought it was my comp so i restarted like 3 times? then i signed in using web msn and realised everyone was going through the same problem. hah. msn sucks. bettina | 9:23 PM
tomorrow i've got an appointment with Dr. Wong. 3 more days and i'm removing my stitches! i can't wait!
the bung i got to know online, called jyen. she said something real sweet.
her: so in 5 days time, stitches removed, prettier eyes and now that you can see the world bigger and clearer, healed from whatever that happened, you will be able to choose the right one now.
3 more days!!!!!!! its comingg. (: i hope by then the swell will go down. and on the 5th gonna party with canon colleagues, and some friends for andrea's birthday! (:
i miss chengyin, ivy, crystal and alicia......
i'm still very puzzled at what you told me before. you wanna stay single and all that stuff and now i see you attached. oh well. whatever it is, i hope you'll be happyy. i just wanna see you happy yea. (: bettina | 2:16 PM
thought about all the past and how i wish i could turn back time and grab you before anyone else did. but i guess im too late. ): sigh. life is so fucked up..
the cup celine gave me. Property Of The Princess!
time to take my medicine again! and of ta sleepp.
i miss you...
bettina | 11:51 AM
this is the number of pills i have to take after EVERY meal. i just took them so decided to post a pic of it. (:
anyway reading my tagboard, thanks to everyone. love you guys.
to CY: i know you must be damn happy now. pls tell me all about it. hah. would love to hear. (:
woke up with my eyes more swollen than ever! its like i can only open A TEENY WEENY bit to see. which is so darn irritating cos i cant watch teevee and i can only use my laptop. alright. shall blog later!
well, its time to move on..... (: although my feelings for him wont fade.. bettina | 12:51 AM
okay let me blog down my operation experience. reached gleneagles hospital, went into the medical centre and into Dr Wong's clinic. drank a cup of some vitamin thingy and swolled down 8 freaking tablets. went into the toilet and washed my face with some alcohol thing that seriously stinks. then went into the operation room. lied down. and the nurse INJECTED MY WRIST. wth. i nearly cried la. the process of the injection was damnn long. i could feel the dumb needle.
the Dr Wong came in, took photo of my eyes and he started. he started drawing the dots on my eye lids and then i felt sleepy but i was awake. i felt him injecting my lids and the liquid flowed into my eyeballs. how gross right? i could feel there was blood cos the nurse kept wiping my eyes. and you the string that they use to sew ur skin? i could the string going in la. haha. gross. then he kept asking me to open my eyes so he can see.
the whole op took around 1 and a half hours. went into the resting room and lay down for a while. then went home. slept so much. i have a personal nurse here. Ms Beverleigh Kam. haha. she'll take the towel from the fridge every one hour to put on my eyes. and she'll wake me up to take medicine. so cute la. i love her. (:
oh well. thats about it. my pay is here and i cant freaking shop! haha. arrggh. ohh well. time to sleep, AGAIN.
okay people, my op went well. thanks for all the calls and messages. really sweet of u guys. now my eyes are half bandaged up, swollen and with stitches on. so.. anyone wanna see some gross pictures, feel free to double click my nick on msn if you do see me, and i'll send it to you. (: bettina | 7:41 PM
teared a little just now. hope it wont affect my eyes. just could not help it alright. just that this hopefully will be the last time.
anyway i'll be home for 5 freaking days. anyone who wants to call me just call me. visit me if you want too. hah. alicia girl may come drop by. i need some company at home these 5 days. its going to be boring. im gonna just watch tv and eat my life away.
ripped this off alicia who ripped it off alvin's. (:
7 things that scare me:
1) youyouyou.
2) things that im not suppose to be able to see.
3) injections which i got a few today.
4) falling out of love.
5) knowing that you're alone.
6) hearing about deaths.
7) cockroaches.
7 things I like the most about me:
1) my hair
2) my fingers
3) and fingernails
4) my ears
5) my height
6) actually nothing else.
7) -
7 things I hate most about myself:
1) being emotional and crying all the time.
2) not being able to hold on to ppl i love.
3) my fat tummy and legs. :/
4) not able to face reality and when its too late, i'll be what i mentioned in 1)
5) hurting myself when i get sad.
6) ultra-stubborn.
7) myself.
7 most important things in my room:
1) handphone
2) laptop
3) mirror
4) my bed!
5) my clothes
6) your picture
7) aircon
7 random facts about me:
1) i look gross w/o makeup.
2) i do not snore when i sleep!
3) i like both guys and girls! :X
4) i attract malay and indian guys. OMG.
5) i lovee to take photos!
6) i love my friends. (sorry but i cant think of anything else to say.)
7) i love you.
7 things I plan to do before I die:
1) have one last look at you.
2) tell you i love you.
3) travel around the world alone.
4) spend all my money on all the good food.
5) tell everyone how much i love them.
6) go skiing.
7) parachuting.
7 things I can do:
1) sleep
2) eat
3) sleep
4) eat
5) grow fat
6) shop
7) sing
7 things I can't do:
1) do that nose thingy that he can do.
2) a split. (ouch)
3) do a freaking cartwheel.
4) read a whole paragraph from a chinese book without reading any word wrongly.
5) stop loving you. no one can stop me.
6) kill someone although i hope i can!
7) watch you leave just like that..
7 things I say the most:
1) shit
2) what the hell
3) ahh so nice! i want to have that!
4) i miss him
5) hi sir/ma'am. how can i help you? (recently saying this ALOT.)
6) damn it
7) wah lao.
thanks to those who wished me goodluck for my op tomorrow. (: i hope it'll turn out good. love you guys. will be out of action for 5 days. gosh. bettina | 1:23 AM
last pic before my op.
