-------------- ;; you are my sweetest salvation

Monday, October 03, 2005

sigh. how am i going to recover like this if i carry on crying everytime i see something saddening and hurtful? maybe i shall stop coming online for the next few days. its hard not to think when i have to stay home for 5 days straight. your presence in my room still lingers and it fucking hurts. there's many things i wanna say and do. but i cant. i havent even gotten over the "lets stop meeting" and now... hai. how am i suppose to face this? even i myself can tell i used to be so happy back then. everyone knew. my whole family. they were happy for me cos they could see me happy everyday.. you gave me so much hopes.. only to cause them crashing down even before anything could happen.

im starting to hate you. hate you for doing this to me. why did you have to play with my feelings? ALL MEN ARE THE SAME.

but i dont care. i'm gonna get over you no matter what! i just have to. im gonna think about all the negative things about you and everything thats gonna make me forget about you. sigh. why did it have to lead to such an ending..

bettina | 12:06 AM

stylegoddess;
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I'm 19. I'm a chinese Singaporean. I'm attached and lovin' it. I'm studying in Ngee Ann Poly. I love singing. I'm a movie bum. I'm a cam-whore. I'm easily contented. I'm in love with Chuan Kai and forever will be. I'm Bettina.

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